Last Friday, I took the final exam for my (distant learning) discrete mathematics course and just now I had logged into the student portal (i.e. Blackboard), surprised to find that my exam had not only been graded but my final grade had been posted as well. I finished the course with an 88%, a B, a few points short of an A. In the past, I would’ve incessantly beat myself up over not achieving the highest grade, denigrating myself with self destructive thoughts: if only I tried harder … if only I studied more … if only I was smarter …
But not this time.
This time, I’m inhibiting those thoughts. Instead, I’m celebrating. Celebrating that I’m fortunate enough to be able to take this mathematics course, a course where I learned about: writing proofs, solving Diophantine equations, applying set theory, counting with modular arithmetic, proving assertions with mathematic induction, converting recursive functions into closed form functions using characteristic equations method. Prior to the course, I was never exposed to those concepts. Looking back, I only vaguely heard of those terms. And who knows if I get to apply any of those concepts as I pursue a master’s – maybe a PhD, one day. Who knows if I’m lucky enough to apply that knowledge to my job as a software engineer.
But who cares? Because really, my goal was to stretch myself, learning more about my field and craft: computer science.